I thought I was cruising along. As much as one could think they were cruising along when going through this. But I felt I was making progress. I felt like all the catastrophe that was going to happen had happened.
Well, I think I was wrong. I had some things happen yesterday that just intensified the consequences of Tim’s choices. I am VERY angry. I don’t want to be angry. But I feel like I can’t control it sometimes.
I thought the worst of it was over. I thought now it was just a matter of working REALLY hard to move forward. But now I feel like I’ve been pushed back. I have to figure out how to stand up again. Do I want to? What happens if I do stand up again?
Today is a bad day. Tomorrow is not looking too good either. God, how much can I take? Please give me the strength to trust You and follow You…no matter what.