Our 11th wedding anniversary is June 5.
We could go one of two ways with this day: mourn and be depressed about what has happened to us over these 11 years and what has happened more recently. OR celebrate where God has brought us over these past four months and commit to this process of restoration and allowing God to bring life out of the destruction.
We chose the latter.
We are going to renew our vows in a very small, simple ceremony on our anniversary. We have invited family and a few friends who have walked this road with us and stood by us and cried and prayed with us.
Unfortunately, there are some who don’t believe this ceremony should happen. They believe it is too soon to celebrate anything and we are rushing things. And that is hard to accept, but everyone is entitled to their opinion. I don’t know, maybe that is what you are thinking as you read this.
But we feel that this is what we need to and want to do right now. While it’s hasn’t been a year or years since Tim confessed to me, God has done some amazing work in each of us. And we want to celebrate that. And we want to say that we are committing to restoration. We are committing to walk this road together with God guiding our steps.
With that being said, we KNOW this is just the beginning. We in NO way think that this ceremony is the end or that things are “all good” now. Quite the contrary! If you only knew how much more work there was to do! We know this road is long. In fact, we don’t come to the end of this road until we are in Heaven.
But why would we want to wallow in the misery only? Why would we not want to take an opportunity to rejoice in the miracles God has already performed. And commit to Him our promise to continue this work and to restore our marriage and our family.
I believe June 5 is going to be a mixture of joy and pain. There will be tears of joy shed (for sure!) and I think there will be some tears of sadness shed as well. But that’s life.
I am excited for June 5. I am excited to take that day back, to redeem it. I am looking forward to divorcing our old marriage and starting a new life together (in some ways). It in no way erases what has happened. But we can have some fresh start to the rest of our lives together. And we want the days ahead to be nothing like the days behind. God is bringing life out of destruction as ONLY HE can do!