As I have mentioned before I have been following along with this amazing woman as we both journey toward restoration in our marriages after an affair. She has had some amazing insights and has been reading wonderful books and learning so much, and therefore, teaching me. She shared this quote on her blog the other day (emphasis mine):
Saint John says that even in the heaven there will be a song that can only be sung by those “who had been redeemed from the earth.” Doubtless it is a song of triumph, a hymn of victory to the Christ who made us free. But the sense of triumph must come from the memory of the chain.
No angel, no archangel can sing it so sweetly as I can. To sing it as I sing it, they must pass through my exile, and this they cannot do. None can learn it but the children of the cross.
The Father is training thee for the part the angels cannot sing; and the school is sorrow.
In the darkest night He is composing your song. In the valley He is tuning your voice. In the storm clouds He is deepening your range. In the rain showers He is sweetening your melody. In the cold He is giving your notes expression. And as you pass at times from hope to fear, He is perfecting the message of your lyrics.
I am blown away by this imagery. I am stunned by the grace, the beauty, the power.
There is something we can offer God that even the angels cannot. Our praise, our song is so much sweeter, so much more meaningful, so much more of an offering BECAUSE OF the pain, the sorrow, the dark times we have endured. If we choose to praise God, our praise is so much more.
I want to offer this to myself, and to you, whoever might be reading this.
To my dear friends who want to have a child but have walked through dark days, sorrow, grief and pain. God is composing YOUR song. YOUR voice is sweeter and more beautiful than even the angels. You are NOT forgotten. God is walking this with you, refining you. You can sing!
To those who are so broken, so hurt. If you choose to follow God, even in the dysfunction, He is using the rain showers to “sweeten your melody”. You have been wounded by others, things you could not control, but God has not forgotten you. He WAS with you. He IS with you. He is making your voice more beautiful. Let Him refine you. You can sing!
To those who have made poor decisions that have hurt you and those around you, God is a God of forgiveness. The sorrow and pain you are living in does not have to last forever. If you let Him, God is making your song more beautiful than you could imagine possible. You can sing!
God, I want to sing! I want my song to You to be so beautiful, so rich, so melodious. Thank you that You take sorrow and make something stunning. Thank you that You take the darkness and work IN it. Thank you for meeting us where we are, no matter how dark, how dirty, how low, how painful. Thank you for being a God of new beginnings, new creation, NEW.
God, please helps us to sing. Give us a song.
Helps us to sing.