I read this quote today on someone’s blog:
“Give me your pain, God says,and I will make life out of it. Give me your broken, disfigured, rejected, betrayed lives, like the body you see hanging on the cross, and I will make life out of it. This is the divine pattern of promise and transformation which gives such hope to history. It is probably the central Gospel message.”
(Fr. Richard Rohr)
I should probably do research to see who this guy is and what context it’s written in, but I also know it does resonate with the gospel and what Jesus came for. And I trust the woman who quoted it.
I read it and just started crying.
And I can’t stop.
So I thought I would write about it and try to get this out of my head and heart.
So many things are so uncertain right now. There are still so many unanswered questions.
It’s been a year now since life as I knew it would never again exist. For a while I was content with not knowing what was next. I knew I was in a holding pattern of sorts, and for good reason. It was time to step back, and out of almost everything I knew, to figure out how to survive. How to live. What to do.
But it’s been a year now.
And I’m questioning what life is going to come out of this.
I still feel stuck in this holding pattern. Just living each day. One at a time. With nothing to look forward to. No major goals. No direction. No passion.
Just living a bland, mundane, repetitive day over and over with little momentary blips of light.
I miss life.
I want God to turn these painful, broken, betrayed lives into LIFE. REAL LIFE.
I’m tired of waiting.
I want to know what’s next!
I want LIFE, not just survival.
I’m not having a stupendous day. Not a horrible day, but not great.
I’m sorry if I disappoint you with this post, but that quote just pricked something in heart and it’s bleeding all over and I had to get it out.